Another Day!

I woke up this morning to the alarm, rolled over and promptly turned the alarm off. An hour later, I woke up to the alarm again and decided it would not hurt to sleep another 30 minutes. It will only cause for crazy rushing around before time to go to work. Thirty minutes later, I wake up and lay in bed and desperately try to come up with a reason to not go to my internship today! Ugh, calling in sick won't work because it would be a flat out lie. Mental health day? Who ever heard of that? No, I can't call in and say I need a mental health day. Personal issue? Hum, now that could work! Sigh, if I don't go today then I have to add a day onto the end of my internship. I get out of bed and start slamming stuff around trying to get ready. I rush into Rayana's room and attempt to wake her up. She wakes up and starts laughing at me. I roll my eyes. This girl is one and laughing at her Mother pitch a fit because she has to go to work. If only she understood I am not trying to funny right this minute. I am frustrated. She continues to laugh. I mean really who wakes up on a gloom Thursday in a such a good mood.  Sigh for yet a third time. Begin talking to self. Why do you not want to go today? I am so over it! I have worked seven days a week for the past three months with only two days off. I'm tired of this. Anyway, I don't want to go transport clients back and forth and spend my day in the car. Ugh, the new summer interns are starting and the new girl is really rude. It's raining I don't want to be outside in the rain. The lady over interns is passive aggressive and rude. Heidi is writing a grant and she has not passed along my readings for the past two weeks nor has she set up the work for me she promised. Finally, we are ready to walk out the door. We get in the car and we drive to the first red light. I stop and sit waiting for the light to change. Sitting, sitting, sitting. The car behind me lays on the horn. Who is this dumb, dumb honking at? Oh my, this dumb-dumb is honking at me. I am sitting at a green light. Start driving. I look at my phone and I see a message. I open it and it is a video clip. I start listening and it is talking about God opening the eyes of your heart to be able to see things as he does. Oh Lord, I feel convicted. "Lord,  help me today and remind me I am helping people. I am bringing light into the darkness of some tormented lives! I am the light in their worlds. These people need my assistance." Ok, better now. Today will be a good day because I will make this day a good day. I will put a smile on my face and keep going.

All that said, I enjoy my internship but this agency I feel has a high level of burn out. An intern started and went through training with me. She was supposed to finish at the same time as me. By the end of January she was coming to work everyday a complete grump. By mid Feb she quit. I had lunch with the social worker on staff and we were discussing the same thing. The agency does nothing to encourage staff or to deal with staff stress. She works as a social worker at another agency and they do a lot to work with employees on dealing with there stress level. The social worker has asked on several occasions if someone could come and speak to staff about stress and techniques to reduce stress. Her attempts have been shot down. I actually feel bad for the employees. They are under paid and overworked. I understand that they are doing much to serve others and help the community but I do not feel this a job I could do long term. I think that burn out level would reach its peak and I would not make it a full year.

I am happy that I have my social work friends to talk to and to keep me going on my journey!